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A picket fence .

dulcesabor — Thu, 26 Aug 2010 06:17:18 +0000

There’s gonna come a day where I have left all of it in the past. Where your name takes a moment to recall, where your bruises are covered underneath expression lines, where your hand print has been faded out with the touch of a new lover. I’ll have nothing for you. You’ll just be another face in the crowd. That’s when you’ll remember me. You’ll have to face the music sometime. You will remember the nights you strangled me, mornings you slapped me, evenings you told me you loved me after you spit in my face. And I will smile to you and remind you ; you choose wrong. I may have been the perfect target but you didn’t get my profile straight. You missed out on the small print that stated .. I’m a fighter, a survivor. My will to live allows me fails and triumphs. You’ll be cold in the gutter.

T e L o J u r o .

Happy Grad Day!

dulcesabor — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 04:35:04 +0000

It finally happen. I can officially say I am a graduate. I would like to thank all these ladies. They gave me some of the most funniest, stressful, lesson learned months. They each brought something to the table that helped me grow as a student and a person. I def made some long term friends and I will miss every single one of them. Thank you ladies! It can only get better from here.

Marvel; Class of 2010 xo

Hell-a good gone bad.

dulcesabor — Mon, 09 Aug 2010 05:32:08 +0000

What was suppose to be a relaxing weekend ended up being work (plus a double) and a job interview that I didn’t leave too happy from. BMV made it all worth it though. Too bad I didn’t end up picking up a book (there were too many i wanted!). I’m listening to Metric and attempting to update my blogs without spilling too many beans.

I graduate on Friday. I’m excited. I can’t believe it’s been 6 months already. I survived college! So, I have a ceremony on Thursday. No biggie, but it should be interesting for the most part. I get to dress up .

I think i’ve had enough of Cineplex. What was me enjoying going to work has now turned into a chore. I can’t stand some of the people I work with. And no, it’s not funny, thanks ! Hopefully they take me seriously and take me off Outtakes. My skins so bad!

I feel like i’m losing my friends before my eyes. It’s quite depressing. I also feel I can’t talk about because people don’t get it or think it’s silly. I wish I knew how to keep things to myself. It would save me the labels and fights with many.

I miss him so much. I’m not looking back on my choice but i’m devastated. I now feel like second best. You never even objected to my choice. It’s as it didn’t phase you whether or not I left your world. Then again, It’s the same record playing in the background.

I guess that’s all for the mean time.
Metric has me feeling alive.
This is the first time this week.

Better Save Me.

dulcesabor — Thu, 05 Aug 2010 03:04:05 +0000

I’ve given it much thought and here it goes. I had a plan to move to BC this summer but since I started college and wasn’t going to finish on time or have enough money with all the expenses I have to pay, that went down the gutter. .Until now!

2011, I’m moving to BC. I have given it much thought and if everything (financially) goes to plan I should be out of here. I need to save up some $$$ money, sell/give away my stuff, and get all my documents ready. I guess only people that read my blog will know about this. I haven’t really told my family and people of that sort. I promise though, my reasons are pretty valid. And it’s so complicated yet simple, I need a change of scenery. There will be so much that I miss but it won’t ever overpower what I want to leave behind.

“Toronto is where I survived, British Columbia will be where I begin to live”
Stay Tuned.

Would you take me for granted?

dulcesabor — Wed, 04 Aug 2010 03:57:32 +0000

i’m at the verge of losing you.
I’ve already lost me.

Deadly Sins.

dulcesabor — Wed, 04 Aug 2010 03:54:12 +0000

lately, i feel disconnected to everything. I’m on the defensive on just about anything. I’m upset at people, i’m mad at myself, and everything is hitting my core ten times more than most times. I’m just having a hard time with change, with love, with things that are incomplete. I’m known as the girl that’s complains. Has it ever crossed your mind that i’m just bitter? Have you stopped to think about the ones also around us that bitch about things in their lives that you and I would die for. I may not always have a reason to but neither does she. C’mon, cut me some slack. My support group has gone down tremendously and to be honest, i don’t even care. It goes to show that truth and time tells all. I’ve learned to be careful with who I give my time and dedication to. It’s funny how much we change with a love in our life. I’d know, I was a victim of that game too. Point being: everyone has their best interest at heart by the end of the day. We’re all selfish. & they say that our self esteem and self love is down the gutter. Ha, give me a break.

After hours Chant.

dulcesabor — Mon, 05 Jul 2010 06:14:52 +0000

Hey readers. It’s been awhile eh? I have been blogging on the other one but it’s only been little random thoughts or poetry things. I’ve neglected wordpress a lot.

I should really be in bed for class tomorrow morning. I can’t sleep, figures. I had to work tonight until 11:15 and then mission it home. I was starving. I haven’t really had the chance to go grocery shopping lately. So, i’ve been eating out instead which sucks. I kinda wanna go down to spadina sometime this week and pick up some fresh fruits and veggies. Feel free to join me anyone. It would be a change.

I also work tomorrow. Boo – school and work is gonna kill me. But i guess it needs to be done. I really can’t wait to graduate. One month left and i’m done. Then I can get back to me and work. I have neglected the first too much already.

I think i’m going to join some kind of extra curricular activity. I need to get out and meet new people and make friends. I haven’t really had luck finding ones at work. I guess i have to try a little bit harder. Being alone sucks at the moment.

I think that’s about it. Pretty pointless but whatever.
Goodnight all. Until the next one.

-M x

A needed update.

dulcesabor — Mon, 07 Jun 2010 02:59:45 +0000

hello readers. It has been a long time since I have updated this blog in particular. Blogspot has kinda taken over when it comes to rants and short writing poem things that I try to do. I am currently sitting on my bed eating a cheeseburger from McDonalds. This is my second visit today. This is no good! My eating patterns have gotten so good until this weekend. I had work today but had someone cover my shift. I couldnt stay late tonight. With school tomorrow and what not. I know I will regret it when I see my pay but my school comes first even If i’m a broke ass. I’m so close to being done I refuse to let anything get in the way. The garage sale wasn’t a huge success on my part because I sold nothing but Fonna did great and I am really happy for her .

I really wanna do a lot this summer. I want to start fresh. Have the summer I’ve been wanting for a while and I’m gonna make it happen. I want to do picnics, go to the beach, lay in the grass and just watch the clouds go by. I wanna feel like a kid again. Laugher is my goal this summer rather than the other L word. I want to laugh until my stomach hurts, until i pee my pants. I want to dance in the rain and jump off docks. Summer 2010 is going to be one to remember. I am so thrilled !

I also am planning to work my butt off once school is done in August so I can go my on trip! I should be doing my passport paper work at the end of this month.

Yoga begins for me tomorrow. Thanks to Michael, I now have a mat (haha, get it, Mike?) and will be adding this to my lifestyle. It’s so fun and I feel so free to just move around. It’s been a while since I’ve done yoga. I still remember some of the moves from when I took it two years back.

I’m gonna get back to my last bit of carbs and Tegan & Sara.
Goodnight readers.
Keep yourselves updated on my other blog.
Writing has been successful lately for me.

Love Always,

–M

Undiscovered.

dulcesabor — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 04:34:07 +0000

Happy One Year.

dulcesabor — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 04:24:14 +0000

I just realized that it has officially been a year since I have moved out on my own. I can’t believe how fast it’s gone by. I wonder what life would of been like if I had stuck in one place. Would I have saved the relationship that mattered the most? Would I have eventually realized what a piece of shit I was with? Would school have actually been successful for me? Or would have life made another twist and turn and caught me switching lanes? Who knows. What I know is that even after a year of living by myself I have come to learn many new things on my own. I wished for change. For something beautiful. For a salvation. Because all I was trying to do was survive. Instead, I dug my own grave. One year later? The things I gave up were absolutely not worth it what so ever.

Thanks, I suppose.